Hello again :)

I know much time has passed. We are still dealing with MANY heart health issues for hubs. Today we are going to a chiropractic specialist - with the hope that he can help.
It makes for long nights and longer days when the heart rate is irratic (sp?) and over 140!
Then the blood pressure drops, he gets dizzy, he loses hearing in one ear and gets the shakes.
We have tried so many avenues - Please keep us in your prayers!
On top of all that - we are in the middle of HUGE life changes - more on that later. The kiddos are all doing well - and our older kids have stepped up and are at least behaving well at this time :)
Thank you God!!
I wish I had something more to post.
I will keep you updated.
Thanks for the care and the prayer :)
Can you imagine how our life would be without it?
Oy!

With all my heart~
Michelle

if wishes were fishes we'd eat well tonight

Lol - the title doesn't have much to do with the post - it's just something my grandma used to say and when I sat down to type this post - I thought...
"I wish I had something really valuable to say" and yep...that line popped right into my head :)
I fell off the atkins wagon when hubs was in the hospital icu and i'm finding it impossible to get back at it. I'm so tired that it just feels like TONS of extra work.
Then i feel worse because seriously? I HAVE to get into better shape! (less pumpkin shape more carrot?) lol
I excitedly look at each of the new posts on my "dashboard" every day and then realize...I'm upset when I don't see new posts from some of my faves...I actually feel like I "MISS" them when they're gone...and yet I'm the WORST at posting regularly!
Should I do a recipe post? A photo post? An "update" post(those seem boring even to me!)Crafting? Cause...I LOVE all of those from other people - i just don't seem to have found my "niche" yet.
I feel like a fraud if I post things "religious" or "homeschool" or "marriage" or "parenting" simply because there are so many days that I feel i may be the last person on the planet to give advice at something i'm doing so poorly at myself
I think of things to post - but then think...no...that may offend my few followers and I don't do confrontation or EVER offend people if at all possible.....but does that make me luke warm?
sigh.
see where my mind takes me? (and if you do..can you come get me? I'd like to go home!lol)
So -
in a nut shell (emphasis on the word nut)
Our family is still in crisis/survival mode and hubs is NOT any better heart health wise.
We have all gone through the stomach flu in the last two weeks and i think its making its second round (nooooo!!)
Our 17 year old is home - mystery solved! NOSY parent of his x-girlfriend totally messed with his head - told him we were brain-washing him and "oppressing" him because we did not want him to choose from a variety of religions. (oh and homeschooling - only cults do that!?) sigh. Poor thing - I felt bad for him when the truth came out. Adults need to keep their stupid opinions to themselves - and work on their own kids!!!
Our daughter has a new job that she seems to like - this is good. still living with the guy we don't approve of. that's not good.
She believes we'll grow to love him - it's hard to explain that the way they are handling things even now will make that difficult at best!
Our family business is okay. trying to keep up with Dave still being sick..
My work is okay. Thank you God for the bi-weekly pay checks!
May be facing a move soon. Paying more than we can afford for rent. :( We've been there 5 years. Truly feels like home - but we MUST make good financial decisions.
to move would be a good one - not an easy one - but a good one all the same.
Pray for us on that one!
I have "met" some great new people through blog-land lately - and their encouragment and a simple "been there, done that, survived it!" has been SO meaningful!
Seriously - I don't comment on EVERYONES blog I read - but if you're here - please consider leaving a comment - it's so lovely to hear from you!!

So - that's the wishes & fishes post!
We start little league baseball with two of the littles tonight. Busy Busy! :)

Thanks for "listening" ie.reading...
With all my heart -
Michelle

and on we go.....

Well - my husband is home from the Hospital - that is good news!
The bad news is he really isn't any better - and they have no idea whats causing his issues! (so they sent him home to feel terrible there!)
I was running late this morning - and he had to take the kids over to a friends house to watch them for a few hours - and just that task (which...yes they can be a handful lol) exhausted him. By 9am he was wiped out!
(he had gone to bed last night at 6:30pm and slept until 7am this morning - so it's not lack of sleep!)
I don't know what to do.
I don't know how to help. :(
Someone asked if it was nerves or stress - NO!
He is the person who takes everything in stride...
I am the one who gets stressed! (like um...NOW!)
I am planning on shoveling vitamins into him like nobodys business - until something works!
I have a herb blend called "heart health smoothie" from the Bulk Herb Store
I just want something to work.
I want him to feel better.
With all the craziness with our teen/adult children lately - I want to start anew.
I want to start making plans to go in a totally new direction.
I want to throttle them (did I say that out loud?) :)
I want to move to Alaska and be off the grid (okay...I'm a florid kid..maybe Alaska is a bit out of my temperature league)
Maybe move to North Florida? lol

Thank you all for listening to me vent.
Through this craziness I have "met" some great new friends via the web!
Gotta look for the positives :)

With all my heart -
Michelle