I find myself - OFTEN - having grand plans for things and then waking up and it being over.
I woke up this morning thinking..."But I wanted to do a wondeful pancake breakfast for my gang for Valentines day....I wanted to get the boys each a balloon and a card to tie to the end of their beds so that they'd see them when they first woke up....I planned to do something special...I don't know how it's now the day after!"
Do you do that? I mean...seriously - there are still things I'm thinking of that I had wanted to do back at the Christmas holidays! :)
I had wanted to do a birthday party for our littlest at his pre-school. (I was down with the flu)I even often pre-buy stuff (like the birthday hats and plates and cups that are STILL sitting in my closet) and it's a swift little guilt kick when I see them a month later (after the event has passed)
Maybe I should come up with a day each year that we bring all that out - and party. For no reason other than I either got too busy, sick, pregnant, tired or just plain forgot - and it NEEDS to be used up. it NEEDS to be brought out and quit haunting me in my closet!
I can think of things I fully intended to do with my daughter (who is now 21 and probably a bit beyond the age of most of it).
I try try TRY to get more organized - but often find that it takes me SOOOOOOO much time trying to organize, and list, and pre-menu, and grocery shop etc. etc. etc. that I don't have any time left.
The other night I was stressing (and I mean STRESSING) about doing a grocery list and STILL having to grocery shop. The family was out riding on the golf cart having a WONDERFUL time. They kept coming in and asking me to join them. Finally I put down the list and just joined in. I kept thinking - I can be (what I think is) A GOOD MOM or I can be A FUN MOM.
Do I really have to choose?
Isn't there a way to be both?
Does it require getting up at 4am and going to bed at 11pm to attempt it? (because really I don't think I can exist on 5 hours sleep!! :(
So - I'm 20 weeks pregnant now - and I worry that I'm gonna be neither a good OR a fun mom - and that even this little one will be doomed to a life with a less than acceptable parent! (is it hormones?)
How do YOU balance it?
(I'd love to know any and all secrets!! :)
Thank you for reading - thank you for commenting - thank you for "listening" to me ramble :)
~with all my heart~
Michelle
About Me
- Michelle G
- I am a momma of 6 :) I have one grand-daughter who is 2 and a half and one who is 9 months!!...my youngest son is 6 months younger than the older one and 1 year older than the baby :) We homeschool and we are always on the go! I like to joke and say we are "addicted to chaos"! Long story short - we are parents of kiddos every age imaginable (almost) and like everyone else...We're learning as we go along! Thank the Lord...He's forgiving and LOVING - 'cause we're truly undeserving of all the wonderful gifts He's given to us!
