Swimming home

Just write - the fifth

Piled into the car... we all drove around looking for home. a new home. a new to us home. not one to buy (I wish!)....just perhaps a new one to rent.
Exhausted from treading water, we do this every six months or so. dream different dreams. dreams where we aren't scraping to get by. dreams where my entire months paycheck does NOT go only to rent and utilities. then it's gone. till next month when i have it again for 1/2 a day.
so we drove. and scanned the newspapers. and searched for "for rent" signs like a treasure hunt. visualizing each place as ours...playing every scenario over in our heads...and outloud...perhaps a second job...maybe more room to run? but...when would we run if we're always working? :( Maybe it's time to get an RV? we can jam into small places!....but where would we park it? Lot rent is almost as much as our small home we live in now...
Do we move further away from work?...only to pay in gasoline what we were paying in rent?
All good questions.
All with no good answers.
After an entire day of looking we returned..
home.
Thankful that we have a home to return to.
Thankful that I have a job that pays for that home.
Thankful that we can still dream and hope and plan....
Thankful that God is in control....
Prayerful that we do the right thing when the time for change comes...
Refreshed by having new plans and goals....we plunge back in to tread water for awhile longer.
Thankful that we know how to swim.


Linking up for week 5 of Just write.