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I am a momma of 6 :) I have one grand-daughter who is 2 and a half and one who is 9 months!!...my youngest son is 6 months younger than the older one and 1 year older than the baby :) We homeschool and we are always on the go! I like to joke and say we are "addicted to chaos"! Long story short - we are parents of kiddos every age imaginable (almost) and like everyone else...We're learning as we go along! Thank the Lord...He's forgiving and LOVING - 'cause we're truly undeserving of all the wonderful gifts He's given to us!

Friday, February 15, 2013

Wait...WHAT day is it?

I find myself - OFTEN - having grand plans for things and then waking up and it being over.

I woke up this morning thinking..."But I wanted to do a wondeful pancake breakfast for my gang for Valentines day....I wanted to get the boys each a balloon and a card to tie to the end of their beds so that they'd see them when they first woke up....I planned to do something special...I don't know how it's now the day after!"

Do you do that? I mean...seriously - there are still things I'm thinking of that I had wanted to do back at the Christmas holidays! :)

I had wanted to do a birthday party for our littlest at his pre-school. (I was down with the flu)I even often pre-buy stuff (like the birthday hats and plates and cups that are STILL sitting in my closet) and it's a swift little guilt kick when I see them a month later (after the event has passed)

Maybe I should come up with a day each year that we bring all that out - and party. For no reason other than I either got too busy, sick, pregnant, tired or just plain forgot - and it NEEDS to be used up. it NEEDS to be brought out and quit haunting me in my closet!

I can think of things I fully intended to do with my daughter (who is now 21 and probably a bit beyond the age of most of it).

I try try TRY to get more organized - but often find that it takes me SOOOOOOO much time trying to organize, and list, and pre-menu, and grocery shop etc. etc. etc. that I don't have any time left.

The other night I was stressing (and I mean STRESSING) about doing a grocery list and STILL having to grocery shop. The family was out riding on the golf cart having a WONDERFUL time. They kept coming in and asking me to join them. Finally I put down the list and just joined in. I kept thinking - I can be (what I think is) A GOOD MOM or I can be A FUN MOM.

Do I really have to choose?
Isn't there a way to be both?
Does it require getting up at 4am and going to bed at 11pm to attempt it? (because really I don't think I can exist on 5 hours sleep!! :(

So - I'm 20 weeks pregnant now - and I worry that I'm gonna be neither a good OR a fun mom - and that even this little one will be doomed to a life with a less than acceptable parent! (is it hormones?)

How do YOU balance it?
(I'd love to know any and all secrets!! :)

Thank you for reading - thank you for commenting - thank you for "listening" to me ramble :)


~with all my heart~
Michelle

2 comments:

  1. WAIT!!! 20 weeks PREGNANT!!!!!!! :) Yeh, congratulations. I know how much you wanted this!! :)

    As for the balance thing, well, I've decided to just forget living up to any expectations ... and just be enough. God gave me the kids He knew I could handle, and for them, I am perfect. SO, enjoy your kids, enjoy your pregnancy, enjoy the days and GET SOME REST! That's way more important than organizing and doing fancy stuff. In my opinion.

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  2. Wow! 20 weeks already. Halfway there. Is it just me or do the first 35 weeks seem to zoom by while the last 5 drag on for an eternity. ;-)

    For me "fun" and pregnant usually don't go hand in hand. I miss being pregnant but enjoy not being so hormonal. We have so many "fond" stories in our family of the crazy things that I've done during pregnancy. I'm terrified that one of my children will someday write a book!! :-)

    Glad to hear that you are doing well other than the "mommy guilt". I had to giggle when I realized that I've been sitting at my desk all day searching grocery store's weekly ads, printing up coupons and trying to figure out a menu/grocery list--not doing fun stuff. But I've got to tighten down our grocery spending and get a little more organized in this area. We end up with too much month left at the end of our money. Sigh.

    Did you ever get my e-mail that I sent the same day I got your letter?

    Keep us posted on how things are going for you!!
    Praying for you!! Love, Kris

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