Today I was honored to be presented with an award by the County Comissioners. My kids were excited that it was going to be on TV. 4 of my kiddos attended the meeting to clap and take pictures of "momma" getting something to hang on her wall.
It was all over within a matter of minutes.
I remember looking out into the auditorium and smiling as my little ones smiled back and waved their arms (as if I could miss them ;)
I know that my job is a blessing.
I know beyond all doubt that God provided this job - one where I can help others - one where my boss and good friend shares and supports my faith.
But between you and I
Between the cyberspace and my heart...
Is this really it?
Am I destined to be on this side of the auditorium when I long to be WITH the wavers and clappers?
I am not ungreatful for the blessing of provision that this job provides. I KNOW that the economy is such that I should DANCE all the way to work each day......
But is this it?
Will I look back some day at the marks of time by the "recognition of _______ years of service?"
Will I wake up one day knowing that the ONLY thing I did right in this life was have wonderful babies and a dear hubby - and it will be too late? They will be off with lives of their own? All the things I wanted to pass along to them...all the things they need to know....all the lessons - all the verses I want to share...will it just be too late?
How can getting an award ruin my day?
with all my heart~
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